[Oh, he's noticed that. Fern feels a pang of remorse when he reads Martin's message. He likes the guy, he doesn't want to actively hurt him or anything. Those books are just... useful. More useful sticking around than being destroyed.
Martin is half right. There's no guarantee the books will hold any answers in regards to his and Paimon's existence, but if there is....]
maybe that Leitner guy was just a jerk and gave the books a bad reputation
uh yeah you get sick, too it's all temporary though i'll be fine eventually
Yes, we have. A man named Lindsey left one out so he could experiment on people. I accidentally picked it up and got thrown out of my own body for a day. It hurt. I don't even know how to describe it Fern. It was like I was just wrong. Everything about me was wrong and it hurt.
Yeah. It took a day, but I was finally able to get back in. I can't imagine what would've happened if Jon hadn't found me, though. Lindsey was carrying my body away and I couldn't stop him.
I don't know. He said he was trying to do some sort of experiment. Probably to see how the book worked. I was a little preoccupied with... everything to get the specifics.
... Part of him wonders what kind of experiment you can do with a body that doesn't have a soul in it, part of him thinks he and Paimon should be very careful about any book experiments involving other Sleepers.]
so Jon stopped him? how'd you get back into your body?
I don't know. I couldn't for a long time, and then I just got... sucked back in, I guess? I honestly thought I was about to be ripped apart. My skin was just pulling and pulling in all directions, and then... I was back?
I really didn't feel great, but I was... physical again, at least?
Fern, that's a massive deal. Like, I don't even know where to begin. How are you still functional as a person? Everything you say... it's hard to imagine how you've managed. You're so strong... god.
But not everyone could have survived it. I don't know that I could have. I don't know many people I think could. Maybe Jon? He's been through so much. But he's 30-years-old. You're half that.
Maybe not, but you survived it. I'm glad, Fern. I'm just so glad you're alive... and can still have fun? Have friends? I wish it wasn't in a place like this or maybe even where you're from, but it's good you have those things.
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it was mostly an accident and stupid mistakes
so what about the books? c'mon dude don't just leave me hanging
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It's getting really dangerous. I'm worried whoever's taking them wants to hurt people. Or thinks they could learn something that just isn't there.
Leitner killed innocent people trying to figure out what those books could do. They're nothing good and nothing that should exist here.
Seriously, though... Fern. Death's really bad here, isn't it? I've been reading over the notes people had taken. You start forgetting things.
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Martin is half right. There's no guarantee the books will hold any answers in regards to his and Paimon's existence, but if there is....]
maybe that Leitner guy was just a jerk and gave the books a bad reputation
uh yeah
you get sick, too
it's all temporary though
i'll be fine eventually
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No... no, that's definitely not it. Think it's probably the malevolent eldritch fear entities tied to them. Probably that.
What number are you on? This isn't the first time in Deerington, is it?
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just because something is dangerous doesn't mean it can't be useful
uh
2nd
why
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And just because something's useful doesn't mean it should be used.
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a lot's been going on, so i'm not sure what i forgot
i guess
[He doesn't agree. of course.]
you and Jon haven't gotten hurt by them, have you?
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A man named Lindsey left one out so he could experiment on people.
I accidentally picked it up and got thrown out of my own body for a day.
It hurt.
I don't even know how to describe it Fern.
It was like I was just wrong.
Everything about me was wrong and it hurt.
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sorry, dude
that really sucks
[It doesn't change his opinion on the books, but he can be empathetic.]
you got back to your body in the end, though
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what was he going to do with your body?
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... Part of him wonders what kind of experiment you can do with a body that doesn't have a soul in it, part of him thinks he and Paimon should be very careful about any book experiments involving other Sleepers.]
so Jon stopped him? how'd you get back into your body?
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I really didn't feel great, but I was... physical again, at least?
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i think i know what that feels like
[Very well thanks to that time he got turned into a sword.]
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just something that happened back home
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I'm sorry you can understand.
I really wish you couldn't.
That's horrible.
It's horrible.
Do you want to talk about what happened?
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uh it's not a big deal
when i became Finn Sword i kind of exploded first
then all the stuff that made me me got rearranged into a sword
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Like, I don't even know where to begin.
How are you still functional as a person?
Everything you say... it's hard to imagine how you've managed.
You're so strong... god.
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i just function
[And mostly tries not to think about it these days so as to not cause an existential crisis.]
i dunno about strong all this junk just happened
probably could have happened to anyone
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i guess it all kind of sucks but it's not like there was anything i could about it
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i kinda suck at them though
so there's that
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