Yeah. It took a day, but I was finally able to get back in. I can't imagine what would've happened if Jon hadn't found me, though. Lindsey was carrying my body away and I couldn't stop him.
I don't know. He said he was trying to do some sort of experiment. Probably to see how the book worked. I was a little preoccupied with... everything to get the specifics.
... Part of him wonders what kind of experiment you can do with a body that doesn't have a soul in it, part of him thinks he and Paimon should be very careful about any book experiments involving other Sleepers.]
so Jon stopped him? how'd you get back into your body?
I don't know. I couldn't for a long time, and then I just got... sucked back in, I guess? I honestly thought I was about to be ripped apart. My skin was just pulling and pulling in all directions, and then... I was back?
I really didn't feel great, but I was... physical again, at least?
Fern, that's a massive deal. Like, I don't even know where to begin. How are you still functional as a person? Everything you say... it's hard to imagine how you've managed. You're so strong... god.
But not everyone could have survived it. I don't know that I could have. I don't know many people I think could. Maybe Jon? He's been through so much. But he's 30-years-old. You're half that.
Maybe not, but you survived it. I'm glad, Fern. I'm just so glad you're alive... and can still have fun? Have friends? I wish it wasn't in a place like this or maybe even where you're from, but it's good you have those things.
Glad to hear it. Just... stick with them, okay, Fern? Especially while you're dealing with what happened. And if you need to talk about it with someone else, I'm hear. I'm pretty good at listening, at least.
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what was he going to do with your body?
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... Part of him wonders what kind of experiment you can do with a body that doesn't have a soul in it, part of him thinks he and Paimon should be very careful about any book experiments involving other Sleepers.]
so Jon stopped him? how'd you get back into your body?
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I really didn't feel great, but I was... physical again, at least?
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i think i know what that feels like
[Very well thanks to that time he got turned into a sword.]
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just something that happened back home
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I'm sorry you can understand.
I really wish you couldn't.
That's horrible.
It's horrible.
Do you want to talk about what happened?
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uh it's not a big deal
when i became Finn Sword i kind of exploded first
then all the stuff that made me me got rearranged into a sword
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Like, I don't even know where to begin.
How are you still functional as a person?
Everything you say... it's hard to imagine how you've managed.
You're so strong... god.
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i just function
[And mostly tries not to think about it these days so as to not cause an existential crisis.]
i dunno about strong all this junk just happened
probably could have happened to anyone
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i guess it all kind of sucks but it's not like there was anything i could about it
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i kinda suck at them though
so there's that
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doubt everyone would do that
[There's always a line, and Fern knows all he's good at is hurting people, which means he usually crosses it.]
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[Luna, so far. Varian. OA. But it feels like he's treading a fine line, sometimes, and that they'll eventually leave him, too.]
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thanks
i'll remember that
that you're good at listening
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i will